I am not sitting in the dark. I am not hiding behind a thick layer of black smoke. In fact, I am a little girl, little in the grand scheme in the world, sitting in my furniture-lacking room on my laptop crap-top coming in hot with a constructive thought. I will speak in true words. This is my promise.
Although the time and the world around me is fleeting ever-so quickly, I'm trying my very hardest to contain myself as sane, sound, and serendipitous. As thoughtless and repetitive as that sounds, it will be incredibly difficult. Albeit often seems tolerable for the world to be in a punch-drunk wave of "ice-cream", there are beautiful things and beautiful creatures that go beyond that. Friendship, creativity, wisdom, love, the Spirit of God: it all rolls in so gently with the tide to us. They come as we need them. Do we grab them? More often than not, no. The tide rolls back out and off they go into the abyss.
These beautiful components spring from enlightenment. The enlightenment comes from those who know, felt, feel, have, or had all of the above and/or many more. These simple, yet completely, indescribably complex, things cause precious and delicate joy like a tiny spark to a wick. When the flame is fanned, life is illuminated. It's beautifully tragic to yearn for such a simple thing: appreciation.
This is no time to be a soul desiring fleeting things. There is no such time to not care. Rip down the drapes off your window and let some light into your room, your heart, your life. I am in the process of shedding light on me. Myself, I am the Luminempress.
